timelishus

The title of this post is a Zen saying. I became familiar with it when started working at an internet company. When I was escorted to my new cubicle, I found a 12.5 x 12.5 cm black square with these words written in white, “Leap and the net will appear”. I found it to be profound then and I was thankful the previous owner of the cubicle had left it. When I unceremoniously left that position, I debated about leaving the saying for the next person, but decided that I hadn’t quite ingrained it into my being and might need to be reminded of it.

As such, it remains right above my computer. It reminds me to have faith: in myself, in others, in the Divine Providence. That I am exactly where I am supposed to be at any given time is difficult to accept sometimes more than others. Nevertheless, with some age comes wisdom, and even though the big picture is often unavailable, I have gotten better about knowing that the reasoning and purpose is there. Now that I am aware of it, I have become more skilled at recognizing it when it is revealed.

This phenomenon became played out once again as I committed to some contract work with a company with which I have some substantial history. The contract work, which was supposed to last for about four weeks was something I agreed to while I continued my real job search. The job market for usability positions is limited here and at this time during an economic downturn. By chance, the contract gig kept getting extended by a month or two at a time. Also, I stopped resenting that I was having to do the contract work and embraced it and the people I was working with.

The confluence of events that brought this bright and diverse group together still seems unlikely and strange. I felt like was there for a couple of purposes: 1) to reconcile some unresolved issues toward the company based on the previous history; 2) to be re-energized by the youthful co-workers; 3) to be a support for some of the youthful co-workers. Friendships evolved and much lighthearted and witty repartee filled our days as we plowed through our redundant tasks.

However, all things must change and evolve in order for the cosmic plan to continue to unfold. As such, my job search has taken me full circle to do a contract gig of school psychology. I didn’t think I would ever do that again, but it was the only thing presenting itself and imploring me. For some reason, I have to believe that I’m being pulled back in. My first thought is I’m doing what I have to do, which is true. But I also have a feeling that I will meet someone or have an experience that will lead me to something that I need. Perhaps, I’m being placed there to benefit someone else because I have some knowledge or something that they need.

As I leap to this new adventure, I have faith the net will appear. When I am able to have constant faith and leap fearlessly into the unknown, I will surrender the sign. Until then I’m keeping it above my computer.

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